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I constantly worry.
I worry about finances and getting a job, and then I worry about random other concerns in my life. Job hunting and money is constantly on my plate however, so when people ask me on a daily basis how I'm doing I start feeling pretty bad about being so repetitive. I actually feel guilty that these people ask me the same question and all I want to do is give them the same answer.
I feel like their thinking or saying with their tone, "Oh the same thing? You're still thinking about this? Why are you causing others worry for you over the same thing day after day?" This makes it even worse when I desperately need to talk to people about these concerns and they are just tired of it. The strange thing is... I really haven't talked to people about this. I have mentioned that it's a concern, but to no great detail have I gone over this subject. And I really need to. I really need to say that yes, I've had savings, but it's going to be done with in a couple of months and this isn't exactly the lucrative season, even for long-term subs. I want to express how I'm going to part-time jobs to seek out more revenue without getting the well you should do that attitude or similar when I just want to express my own feelings.
That's the thing about money.. People seem to have so much of their own feelings invested into the concept of money that when it comes to other's need to relay their concerns, well, it's clouded over by our own concerns. It's like emotion, once there is even the slightest hint, then that part of our brain is activated and the rest becomes way cloudier. And I know I do it. As soon as anyone around me mentions being low on money or looking for a job, whether I say it or think it, I go off into several tangents of what I need in my job life, of my money problems, where am I getting rent/bill money, and whatever possible solution I can come up with at the time for my problems.
A good deal of thought goes into whatever little I mention about money. So if you think I talk a lot?! Trust me, it's way worse in my head.
I worry about finances and getting a job, and then I worry about random other concerns in my life. Job hunting and money is constantly on my plate however, so when people ask me on a daily basis how I'm doing I start feeling pretty bad about being so repetitive. I actually feel guilty that these people ask me the same question and all I want to do is give them the same answer.
I feel like their thinking or saying with their tone, "Oh the same thing? You're still thinking about this? Why are you causing others worry for you over the same thing day after day?" This makes it even worse when I desperately need to talk to people about these concerns and they are just tired of it. The strange thing is... I really haven't talked to people about this. I have mentioned that it's a concern, but to no great detail have I gone over this subject. And I really need to. I really need to say that yes, I've had savings, but it's going to be done with in a couple of months and this isn't exactly the lucrative season, even for long-term subs. I want to express how I'm going to part-time jobs to seek out more revenue without getting the well you should do that attitude or similar when I just want to express my own feelings.
That's the thing about money.. People seem to have so much of their own feelings invested into the concept of money that when it comes to other's need to relay their concerns, well, it's clouded over by our own concerns. It's like emotion, once there is even the slightest hint, then that part of our brain is activated and the rest becomes way cloudier. And I know I do it. As soon as anyone around me mentions being low on money or looking for a job, whether I say it or think it, I go off into several tangents of what I need in my job life, of my money problems, where am I getting rent/bill money, and whatever possible solution I can come up with at the time for my problems.
A good deal of thought goes into whatever little I mention about money. So if you think I talk a lot?! Trust me, it's way worse in my head.